I've talked about changing the past, not having a past, now I want to talk about: How would things turn out if I had no future. Talk about family, friends, that weird dream I have, and possibly where I predict where I would go (and why).
Just like not having a past, I think my family would be a little bit richer. My financial things aside, I honestly don't think my family will hold my dieing wish: I want my funeral to be a nice party, not a gloom-fest. They wouldn't allow that since it's not exactly traditional, I understand.
I've had dreams about this very thing. I call them dreams and not nightmares, because they are quite possible. In my dreams the variation of how many people attend to my funeral changes every time. Sometimes it's my immediate family, whole family, family and friends, whole family and friends, whole family & friends & online friends, whole family & friends & online friends & some people I've never seen before, and sometimes not a soul...not even the father to say h
The sad thing is, I think I would die in my sleep, and the worse thing about it, nobody would know until it's waaaay to late. My sisters usually leave the house at 8 and 9:30 am, and I usually get up around 10. So, if I had a heart attack or something, then they would find my cold dead body around 7pm when it's too late.
Plus they say there are five stages of death (for the person dying and also, for a griever): Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression, and Acceptance.
Denial: I'm not having a heart attack/I'm not going to die/I'm too young to die?
Anger: Why the hell am I taken when others bigger than me are still living?
Bargaining: If you save my life, I'll promise to eat healthier and go to church every Sunday.
Depression: I haven't done everything I wanted in my life!
Acceptance: If it's my time, it's my time. Take me lord!
Thursday, April 12, 2007
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I think, the existence of human death makes our life more valuable.
We are think about our values through the thinking of death.
However, don't think about this too seriously.
You're too young to be dead. :)
I agree that I shouldn't be thinking of death too seriously, but I honestly don't think there's such a thing as "too young to be dead" because death has no minimum age requirement to die. Babies and children die, that's tragic. People in their prime time of their lives (like ourselves) are tragic as well. But death doesn't care...I guess it all depends on weather or not you think people have a time limit or not in this world.
Whats the real reason that got me thinking about this? Well, to be honest, it would have to be that a kid (in an old high school I used to attend) tried to wake up his room mate to go to class. This kid was in perfect shape, but he died in his sleep (heart attack). After the autopsy, it's been said that he had no bad medical background or medication, drug overdose, family medical problems, or anything of the sort. He just died.
So how's it that he died and I haven't? I'm "overweight", and I'm working on that. But still, why do the good die young?
-Marco
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